“……it literally feels like I’m in a fun house in my own home.”
Today I am wondering if I’m in herxing? What is Herx? Well, let’s just say we piss off these little Lyme bugs when we try to get rid of them. And they must be as stubborn as me because they are not going to go down without a fight. I pretty sure there is some pretty cool medical definition out there to describe “the healing crisis” my body is going through or will go through, not sure which one it is yet, but like I said, I want to keep my blogs simple and easy to understand. Most medications, for the most part, cause some type of stomach upset if you don’t eat with them. I have been eating with my medications, but I’m not very hungry right now so I may not be eating enough to the nausea is there, but I’m able to ignore it most days. I haven’t had a headache in a few days and for the most part my pain is minimal. Plus, I’ve been able to cook my own meals when I am home!
Yesterday at work however, things changed a bit. I started to feel very, very lightheaded. Now, not the kind of lightheaded like I’m going to pass out, just like super heavy, but like I can fall over at any second but don’t. Luckily it was the end of the shift and honestly, I’m use to be lightheaded when I get up or move to fast or bend over to get things so I just kind of ignored it. I went home and then things really changed. I was walking around and the dizziness was getting worse. So I quickly ate something, warmed up a salt bath and took Benadryl like the doctor said. I was dizzy until the moment I went to bed and actually feel asleep. Yes, I was even dizzy laying in bed.
Right now, it literally feels like I’m walking in a fun house in my own home. I keep sawing back and forth but only in my head, not actually. I have run into things, but that’s a normal thing for me. I mean come on, walls, desk and chairs just come out of no where sometimes! On my way home from work today, because yes I did go to work since I wasn’t too bad this morning, I was on the phone with my mom and my right arm started getting super tight and tingly and started to feel numb. It usually happened to my left arm, but this time my right. Currently, after I took the Benadryl, my last medication of the night and did my third epsom salt soak of the week, my arm is better. The dizziness is there, but my arm is better.
“….it’s funny, God always has a way of reminding me that He has a plan when I start to feel anxious about my situation.”
As I was getting out of the bath, something dawned to me. I have always though that God was hilarious, and He makes it apparent again. Let me explain. So when my fiancé and I bought our home, it was an inventory home. What does that mean? It was brand new, however they spec it more then a base model but less then a hooked up model home and we got it for a great price. One of the things they “decked” out in it was a separate shower, garden tub in the master. See, I love showers. My future dream house if God wills me to have such a life is a giant walk in shower with multiple shower heads hitting me from every angle but the one that hits my head feel like rain! I know, your girl has dreams. So, that being said, if we were to have bought a new build, I wouldn’t have pick a garden tub at all, I would have went with the bigger walk in shower. But when we fell in love with our house, we didn’t have the option, we had to take the garden tub. That was over a year ago, and it’s funny, God always has a way of reminding me that He has a plan when I start to feel anxious about my situation. I’m convinced, and you can try to convince me other wise, it won’t work, that God planned this. He knew this was my future, and as much as I don’t enjoy it as much, soaking in the tub is going to help me get better much faster then showers would. I’m keeping my positive vibes going. God is good all the time, and all the time God is good, even when I’m dizzy, even when I can’t feel my arms, even when I’m scared of what’s to come, even when I’m not sure if I’m strong enough, He is.
This was day 5-6.
God bless you all